Okay, havent posted in a while but need some guidance on something. I'll try to be brief.
I have been a worship leader before, both paid and volunteer. When my wife and I came to our present church we naturally got involved with the worship music ministry. I eventually began filling in for the worship leader when she needed a break. And it was all great. Then something happened. I play saxophone, prefer the soprano, but dont like trying to shove it into every song. So when the opportunity came to play guitar more I started doing that. Transitioned to electric later and we had a good mix with 2 electrics, acoustic, bass, keys drums etc. Then I was bumped to make room for a member who had left and returned. 2 acoustics didnt make a lot of sense, there was no room in the vocal line for me and again, I dont like trying to shove a saxophone into every song. So I watched the set lists and played when the sax fit. Then i was no longer asked to fill in leading worship. Okay? Now I dont feel like I have a place at all on the worship team. I went from being a "go to" guy, at one time referred to as the 'associate worship pastor' to not being much of a part of the team at all. This has all occurred over the past 2 years. When I ask about it I am told I'm 'not ready'. How do I go from leading to not ready to lead? I have been told I do a good job and I'm regularly asked when I might lead again. It has been confusing. I guess I just dont feel like God would give me a talent and a passion for music ministry and then not let me use it.
Now, not tooting my own horn (lol), but if I wanted to, there are a handful of churches I could go to and lead worship next week. I do enjoy leading but do realize leading for the sake of leading is not a good thing.
Any insight or suggestions are welcome.
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