Robinskeys
08-26-2009, 10:31 AM
... I ask because what I've seen of "church" in my life (the VAST majority of it anyhow) is ridden with politics, drama, guilt-induced action, worship wars, legalism in varying degrees, etc.! (and I've seen allllll kinds of 'church' in my life!)
Church is SUPPOSED to be... US! We are the church if we are believers in Jesus Christ! When did it become about committees and buildings and policies and who gives the most, etc.?! (Some of this is indeed rhetorical...)
I'm serving in a church right now. I want soooo much to make a difference, but the apathy and the petty-ness and the stupidity and general lack of anything truly based on Jesus Christ Himself, rather than what's become the church's idea of Jesus and tradition has me so frustrated and baffled that I don't know if I can allow my children to remain in such a place, and don't know if I can truly, feasibly make a difference! THEY are my first responsibility and priority before God, and I don't want them turning away from God completely because this is allll they see of Him outside of our household! I've seen that happen over and over again to families! It scares the crap out of me!
So what is church really?! What is it supposed to be?! I'm sooo tired of trite answers. Whatever it is now, it's obviously not working. I can't fault the upcoming generation (my own included) for turning away from any form of traditional church! I don't blame them even a little bit! "We" are too often, blatantly ridiculous!... Coming together in our little clubs and making club rules that have nothing to do with the world outside our little... well... club!
I just want Jesus! I'm so exhausted of all the peripheral!
Church is SUPPOSED to be... US! We are the church if we are believers in Jesus Christ! When did it become about committees and buildings and policies and who gives the most, etc.?! (Some of this is indeed rhetorical...)
I'm serving in a church right now. I want soooo much to make a difference, but the apathy and the petty-ness and the stupidity and general lack of anything truly based on Jesus Christ Himself, rather than what's become the church's idea of Jesus and tradition has me so frustrated and baffled that I don't know if I can allow my children to remain in such a place, and don't know if I can truly, feasibly make a difference! THEY are my first responsibility and priority before God, and I don't want them turning away from God completely because this is allll they see of Him outside of our household! I've seen that happen over and over again to families! It scares the crap out of me!
So what is church really?! What is it supposed to be?! I'm sooo tired of trite answers. Whatever it is now, it's obviously not working. I can't fault the upcoming generation (my own included) for turning away from any form of traditional church! I don't blame them even a little bit! "We" are too often, blatantly ridiculous!... Coming together in our little clubs and making club rules that have nothing to do with the world outside our little... well... club!
I just want Jesus! I'm so exhausted of all the peripheral!