I am deeply depressed!

[centerpointeworshipper]

I have been leading worship at a church for about 4 years now. During this time, my marriage has encountered some problems, and my husband does not attend church with me anymore. Needless to say it is very difficult for me to fullfill my position due to conflicts at home. I have been strong and tried to please the leadership and my husband at the same time and I am exhausted.

Recently, my husband said that if i didnt leave this particular church that our marriage would most likely end in divorce. So with that said I put in my resignation.

I am devestated! I love my church and my position so much and I cant bare the thought of leaving. It is tearing me apart inside but I know that I have to respect my husbands wishes also. He's not asking me to stop worshipping God, just stop worshipping God at this church. I know what I have to do, and my pastors agree, it just hurts so much. I am in a deep depression that I have never experienced before. Please keep me some encouragement or anything at all! :(

[fmckinnon]

wow, that's tough ... but I have to say that I think you did the right thing. Just love your husband, and in your Godly submission, allow your intimacy with Christ to go deeper than ever before. Allow this to drive you deep into the throneroom of heaven, and pray.

[louca]

Be encouraged to know that God was pleased that you served him at this church for 4 years. And be encouraged to know that God will be pleased that you choose to follow Him through all that life leads you through. We all have seasons in our lives, some worse than others. I think your decision to leave is a wise one. Sometimes you just have to do what is right, even though it hurts and might not feel right.

Lou

[mikeymo1741]

I will agree with the others that you did the right thing. After God, family has to come first, before church.

Have you asked your husband why he has such issues with your church? Is it your involvement? A doctrinal difference? Has someone offended him?

There has to be something at the root of this.

[harrywalls4]

What an amazing situation you are in! My prayer for you is that you allow God to show you what to do. I will be the first to say that I can't personally relate, but I will also say that God is still in control. I applaud you for honoring your family. I would agree with the guy who wrote above me. There has to be something at the root of this issue.

[LoriBiddle]

Really tough! My heart breaks for you! I wish I could sit across from you and encourage you!

Do you feel that you and your husband need counseling, or is the only problem area with the church? Please don't walk away from God...just love Him and your husband as strongly and purely as you can sister! Prayin...