tobywan
08-17-2008, 07:08 PM
For those of you that are aware, I have been under discipline for having fallen from grace. I have been doing some online lessons and going for counselling with my pastor.
Over the past couple of weeks, I have felt "anxiety" (for lack of a better word) or maybe what can be better described as itchy fingers. I am wanting to get back to playing the piano and leading worship. My pastor's wife had said something to me today that got me thinking about something. She said, what if I was asked to do something that I didnt like? That kind of set me back becuase I guess I hadnt considered that as I was focused on the ministry. I started to think about that...what if? How would I handle it? How would I react? I guess I need to make sure that Im doing ministry for the right reasons and this is something that I need to examine in my own life to make sure that this is the correct path that Im supposed to be taking.
I have been practicing my piano, singing, and so on.. just to make sure that I keep current and not get lazy and stagnent as I know that God could take my talent away. Keep me in prayer over the next few days and Im wanting to go for lunch with my pastors and share my heart with them.
Over the past couple of weeks, I have felt "anxiety" (for lack of a better word) or maybe what can be better described as itchy fingers. I am wanting to get back to playing the piano and leading worship. My pastor's wife had said something to me today that got me thinking about something. She said, what if I was asked to do something that I didnt like? That kind of set me back becuase I guess I hadnt considered that as I was focused on the ministry. I started to think about that...what if? How would I handle it? How would I react? I guess I need to make sure that Im doing ministry for the right reasons and this is something that I need to examine in my own life to make sure that this is the correct path that Im supposed to be taking.
I have been practicing my piano, singing, and so on.. just to make sure that I keep current and not get lazy and stagnent as I know that God could take my talent away. Keep me in prayer over the next few days and Im wanting to go for lunch with my pastors and share my heart with them.